2 years already

Dear Dakota,

I have dreaded this day all month, and I have dreaded this month all year. December has never been high on my list of faves, and you certainly sealed that opinion when you charged off over the bridge in December. It has now been two years since you raced on without us. (There is a bridge, isn’t there? Please for the love of all that’s holy tell me that there is.)

I miss you.

You got the last laugh, DD. It actually didn’t take me long to realize that, even as dense as I can be. For 10 years you listened to me tell people that you were not the dog of my heart (oh no), you were the pity pup–the one we took home because we couldn’t bear to drive by and leave it in the road. After all, once someone holds you in their lap in a dirty ditch and cries over you, how can they possibly leave you? A pity pup for sure. But a heart dog? No, you’d not ever be my heart dog.

And then you were.

And so you laugh. I’m pretty sure of that. But the gentleman jerk that you were probably only chuckles a tad. You were never one to rub anything in too hard. You were the forgiver, the peacemaker (unless it was a strange dog, of course), the snuggler, the shy and sly willing-to-come-last devotee. You were my satellite, and I was your sun. You put me at your center, a place I knew full well that you put me, but a place I knew I really did not deserve to be.

And all the while, you self-consciously and gently led, and led, and led some more. And I got less stupid.

Buddy boy, let me tell you what I’ve learned: You were the master and I was the grasshopper. Well played, my friend. Well played.


Your Woman


Author: Dakota Dawg

Dakota lived high in Colorado and was a member of the February Furballs. He lost a front leg to soft tissue sarcoma on 2-11-11. Dakota impulsively decided to see what the whole "rainbow bridge" business was about on 12-15-12 and before we could stop him, he was gone. But never forgotten. Never.

4 thoughts on “2 years already”

  1. Oh I love that face….I never really got to know you while you were here DD, but I got to know your spirit so well through your Woman. I know she misses you so much…you’ve sure left your mark here on this earth through her, she is you and you are her. She helped me through so many rough times while I can only imagine how much she was grieving. I didn’t really know that at the time – I had only just met her. But now I look back and realize how fresh that grief was and how selfless she was being and caring.
    I miss you DD even though I really never got to know you. I hope you are having a blast up there.

  2. Amen. Amazing what they teach us my friend. Dakota you are missed greatly. I know this past year you have been watching over your family a lot. I know you are teaching all of us still. Shari you & Dakota are a great asset to this site.

    Even through your grief you continued to help all of us.

    My heart hurts with you.

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